So I think that this is the last time I'll have access to internet before I get home (whaaaat).
The thing is though: I really don't have any profound words to end this blog with, some kind of mind-blowing realization to top off all that I've written about over the past 3 1/2 months. Bummer, right :P?
But I do want to say this: it's funny, I think one thing that I've really discovered is that sometimes, the only answer to getting out of a funk is to just live though it. That doesn't mean force yourself to be happy, that doesn't mean denying the fact that you're struggling- what it means, is that sometimes even if you feel like you can't or don't want to, you just have to know that the only thing you can do is keep truckin on. And that one distant day, you'll wake up and realize, well, shit. Everything's different, and I don't even know how I got here. But somehow, everything's suddenly beautiful again <3.
I kind of feel like that's what's happened for me this semester. Suddenly, I feel like it's all falling into place, and I'm feeling full of life and love and beauty and strength, and it's SO good. I don't know how, but somehow I ended up exactly where I wanted to be.
I love this country so fully, and I know I'll miss it very, very much. I also know that the journey doesn't end here- either in life in general, or in this country. I'll be back, & I hope very soon! I also know that there's no way I won't take all that I've learned and experienced and live it in a new way when I get home.
I'll end with a quote that I feel like I also used at the very beginning of this blog. It still rings so true, and really speaks to what I feel like has really been my underlying goal: to live with courage [that's what the name of this blog means, if you didn't catch that :P]. Thus, in the words of Alan Cohen:
"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power."
I love you all so much, and thank you for being here with me for this experience! You are always and forever with me, no matter where in the world I am <3.
Well, see you all in less than a WEEK!!! WOOOOOHOOOOOOO :)!!!
Love,
Hailey
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