good day sunshine!

With props to Danny, "Good Day Sunshine" by the Beatles has become my new theme song :). We had a really good talk in the car the other night about how shitty break-ups are/life can be sometimes, and how really the only thing to do through it all is to just stay positive. Homeboy is such a gem, I feel blessed to have been able to hang out with him so much over these past few weeks. 

When I came home for winter break, I was this..... broken, exhausted, totally overwhelmed semblance of my former self. I was, literally, worn out. But I can say with total honesty that I have grown and changed and developed SO much over these past six weeks (!). I needed a break, a real one, apart from all of the people and memories and worries that were slowly beginning to break my spirit. It's not all better yet- the past few months brought up a lot of issues and questions about who I am, and who I want to be, and how I want to live [aka- some really essential stuff that'll clearly take awhile ponder fully]. BUT- I feel like I'm doing a stellar job of dealing with everything (!!!!) ( <-- we don't say that to ourselves enough!). I feel like a flower that had almost withered up completely due to insufficient knowledge about its care and needs, but that was revived with tenderness and love and great food and amazing friends and beautiful Florida days and the beginning of a long legacy of self-love :) (not to be cheezy or anything, of course :p).

Life has a new, sunny glow these days. I mean..... nothing's perfect, but it won't ever be and that's okay (even just being able to say that is SUCH a liberating act!). 

"Good day sunshine

  Good day sunshine

  Good day sunshine

  I need to laugh, and when the sun is out

  I've got something I can laugh about

  I feel good, in a special way

  I'm in love and it's a sunny day

  Good day sunshine

  Good day sunshine

  Good day sunshine..."

Now to continue with my read-a-thon. I can do it I can do it I can do it.....

right? (yes!)

Only ONE FULL DAY after today...... that's unbelievable. Like I literally don't believe I'm getting on a plane in two days, but you know what? I'm sure it'll all be alright, and for now- it's a beautiful, sunny afternoon, and I'm not going to worry it away :).