trying to be strong, trying to be...

everything (unrealistic, I know :P)! These days, I've been trying to curb my fear and insecurity by facing those fears and insecurities head on :).  Sark writes that the only way to live the life of your dreams is to start living it now (today!), to any degree that you possibly can. I think that this is SO very true- any time I've done something outside my comfort zone, or that I felt a little uneasy about but knew I wanted or needed to do- the rewards have been more than I could have ever imagined. So I'm trying to start living my life that way, and I think that this upcoming trip to Bolivia will be no exception. Really, everything this break has supported my desire to be myself, as fully as I possibly can- reconnecting with friends, visiting NC, meeting & being around Danny, pulling myself back on my feet, working on worrying less, seeing Natan again & having it be okay... Just....everything (!).

Here are some words I love by e.e. cummings that sum up with extraordinary beauty and grace the way I want to live and be in this incredible world:

" i thank You God for most this amazing 

day:for the leaping green spirits of trees

and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything

which is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,

and this is the sun's birthday;this is the birth

day of life and love and wings;and of the gay

great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing

breathing any-lifted from the no

of all nothing-human merely being

doubt unimaginable You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and

now the eyes of my eyes are opened)"